So it looks like school will be starting up again soon.

I've bought new clothes. I've got paper and pencils. I'm working on the summer reading.

But can I really be ready to go back? It seems so out of place that someone such as myself, always viewed as extroverted and confident, could be so worried about something like this. But underneath it all I feel alone and quite misunderstood.

I don't hate everyone. I just pretend to hate them so they can't hate me first.

I'm NOT extroverted; it's all an act. It's my defense against people who talk shit.

I HAVE FEELINGS. I know who among you are spreading lies behind my back. Did you really think I wouldn't find out? I may be absent-minded, but I'm certainly not stupid.

And worse yet, I want to forgive everyone, and I hate myself for it.

I will go back with a clean slate. Everyone who has ever done anything to me is from this point on forgiven to the maximum extent that I can forgive. If you choose to continue to treat me like shit, I hope to God you can find peace with yourself. You're nearly adults now. Start acting like it.